I am a little frustrated with myself because I really want to finish up my novel, Conclave, but I find it hard to make the time or get back to it once I've left it for a while. So... I decided to vent out my frustrations in this blog post. But... after I typed in the title, I just stared at the blank screen like an idiot for fifteen minutes.
It is the weirdest thing. I can't come to grips with it.
I guess it's just writer's block. But it really isn't because I'm not really blocked... I know exactly what it is that I want to get down onto paper.
Maybe it's more like stage fright. I know what I have to do. I am prepared to do it. But when it comes right down to it... maybe I am afraid of stepping out onto the stage. Once I am out there (because I step, or am pushed) I have no problems. I get on a role and in a zone. Take last Monday night for example. I showed up at Joffrey's for our regular Monday Creative Night, and no one else was there. This was actually a blessing! I opened my laptop and wrote Conclave for three hours straight! It was awesome. The staff didn't even bother me to tell me that they had actually closed the place a half hour ago!
Well, maybe when I figure out what the secret is to overcoming "stage fright", I'll bottle it and become a millionaire.
Conclave, my second book (or is it my first since I never really finished my first book?) is going through a major revision and push to the finish line. Chuch has given me great encouragement. We met last week at Joffery's and he helped me hammer out some plot points that I was stuck on. They're really good!
So... enough posting. I have to get back to the Conclave!